For the majority of my life, I have seen that I have had a ton of social rejection, including those that are also outcasts. It seems the people that like me the most are mostly intellectually disabled (not trying to be offensive against them) or already disliked by everyone for other obvious reasons. I feel everyone else throughout my life, throughout high school, and even now, including those that are clearly outcast, have always felt displeased about my presence.
yeah, okay, I was not very bright in middle school, I thought I was the ***. Maybe that has partly something to do with it.
I have good hygiene, I try to mask as hard as possible, yet it’s the same result.
It has caused me to be quiet and haven’t seen anyone in a while, people I thought I considered friends haven’t seen me and hasn’t even texted me in a few months. The group I kinda liked has not seen me, with a couple of my “friends” from that group, and even when some do show up, they honestly look extremely displeased. Uncomfortable, displeased, anxious. It’s kinda hard to cope with but I’m trying to not be too upset about it.
Another thing is that I had told my cousin secrets that they shouldn’t have known in the first place (I shouldn’t have ever told them) and then after that, it seems they may have met everyone I knew. So that made things exceptionally worse. I’m pretty sure they did leak said secrets. I rly should not have trusted them at all.
pretty sure said cousin pulled me out of a relationship I had a couple years back for their advantage, making me think otherwise on what was rly going on (long story, can’t rly explain)
Don’t exactly need advice but if you want to say something go ahead. Just a question and a rant on top of it. Does anyone here ever have had the experience of being an outcast among outcasts?