Soppy boy!

Hi everyone,

Im only writing this down to help wok through it. 

Ive just finished reading a short story by Stephen King. I love to read and am often gripped by books but rarely moved by them. I dont feel particularly sensitive today but the story i just finished has touched something in me. 

I am now sititing at my desk at work with misty eyes and a lump the size of a grapefruit in my throat. Luckily i have my own office lol. 

What a soppy tart!!!!!

  • I found researching it myself very helpful. Understanding that I'm different and not broken was a important distinction to discover.

    I actually bought this up with my phycologist who hadn't considered it as I was being treated for low mood.

  • That actually makes perfect sense. 

    Many times while driving i get overwhelmed by the words of a song. Sometimes to actual freely flowing tears. 

    I dont look at old photos as nostalgia makes me terribly sad. I have been driven to irrational acts of generosity due to a situation making me feel very strongly. 

    Thank you for your ramble. That was very helpful. My emotions have always been a rollercoaster of extremes, causing my psychiatrist to keep upping my meds. 

    Sometimes i feel such a strong emotion it really is very difficult to know what it is. Even when i am hyper and super chatty, it isnt a pleasant feeling. 

    Maybe i should do some research on this!!!!

  • Something I discovered while speaking with a psychologist is that there's a condition called hyper empathy syndrome, it's not uncommon in the ASD community. It is more problematic when its also combined with the of difficulty recognising your own emotions, also not an uncommon ASD thing.

    You can become very emotional over the slightest thing, be it a song, photo a fragment of a memory etc or weirdly the "vibe" you get from your environment. Some people seem almost oblivious to what is happening around them, others like me get everything at full volume but I suppose there are degrees in-between.

    I obviously have both of these elements and until I understood them it made my life difficult, I and the GPs thought I was "just" depressed as I couldn't describe let alone remember being happy, I was/am prone to tears when I am triggered.

    I hope this ramble made sense.

    Stay well 

  • Lion King is amazing and sad one of my fav films ^^

    I love Stephen King books he can make me actually feel and understand how I'm feeling

    Which isn't easy at all 

  • Hi Dogtooth, 

    I think this is actually really nice to hear. I often feel very detached from my emotions and even when I do feel things, I often can't put a finder on what that feeling is, so it is good that you were touched by the moving words in your book, I think. 

    I also take a lot of medication that makes me feel quite numb which is another factor in not feeling things. 

    In short - feelings are good, well done on having them :)

  • Oh Lion King nearly killed me. Ive only ever been able to watch it once. Same with Dumbo. Im good for nothing after that rollercoaster. 

    Today took me by surprise though. Totally out of the blue. Im back together now. 

    He is a genius in my opinion to write a short 20 page story that makes a person care deeply enough about a fictitious character, that they are moved to tears!!! 

  • There's nothing wrong with being emotional :) 

    Every time I watch Disney I cry because I find it so moving lol ^^