Hi all,
Recently diagnosed and starting to get my head around it *a bit...* but struggling and wondered if anyone has found / is finding this?
I've realised I've camouflaged extensively over the years, haven't really stimmed and my meltdowns [with a couple of exceptions] seem to have been more internalized and appeared as shutdowns, in that I just tend to withdraw completely.
As I've learnt more about autism and how it can manifest, I find I can't camouflage as much, it's not that I haven't tried to just 'carry on as normal' I just don't seem to be able to. I've found I've noticed myself stimming for the first time but yesterday I was in the supermarket with my wife and got way over stimulated and was being asked the same question several times and felt like I either wasn't explaining very well or just wasn't being heard - either way I had to close my eyes and it was excruciating to hold an outburst in - I'm still feeling the stress of it this evening.
Can I please ask you guys if you found an increase in symptoms after diagnosis and if you found it harder to regulate, how did you manage to overcome it? My wife and I are both still getting our heads around this thing, she's supportive and brilliant and doesn't deserve to be on the back end of any of my frustration.
Cheers
