So last week it was the end of term and I survived to the end of the year at a sports school which aims to support the careers of the next generation of football geniuses És, Olympic stars, and so on. And they are a pretty rambunctious bunch. On the last day my 8th years wanted me to let them out into the courtyatd to play, but I got the impression the PE teacher wasnt keen so I didnt. So I practically ended up having a riot on my hands and since their behaviourr hadn't beem stellar in the last two weeks I wrote an official warning letters to the parents for all of them after chatting to their form tutor.
Now two boys, only one from the class, are trying to call me from Instagram where they had tracked me down anyway. A friend of the first boy said they want to report me to the police for the 'unfair' report, but when he also offered to send me a d*ck pic I told him I would block him.
I suppose that probably is the easiest solution. I told the boy I would be happy to meet him at the school premises, where the full-time teachers still have business if he has issues he wishes to raise with me. This morning however. both were at full swing trying to call me again though.
Not sure whether to tell the school but they might see me as a wimp in that case. It now seems a lot of the boys in eigth and ninth have been crushes and leching over me and as a native teacher not au fait with how everything works, they always saw me as a soft touch. I got harsssed all year over their marks but I wasn't prepared to give them full marks every year for nothing.
Then yesterday I got a message from a place that sends me skype kids. Apparently a few have pulled out this summer becaise of complaints that they can't see me and can't hear me either. Three weeks ago I found out that one pair of headphones had broken down and last weekend the jack adaptor did too, so I got a new one.
Sometimes no matter what I do they say they have trouble hearing me but everything on my tablet seems fine, and I dont have these issues with anyone else. Sometimes if I have to copy material they wont be able to see me and I explain that to them. I asked one boy today about these hearing complaints and he admitted his own laptop doesn't have very high volume.
So it has now become a row with the boss. This is the one who had drawn attention to the missing seconds of teaching time. Which I rectified, incidentally.
The thing is I have got a lot of this at various workplaces over the years. It just seems to me there is never enough faith in me and I end up being treated like a bum, nothing I ever do is good enough!! I am wondering now whether to tell her what she can do with her students. Maybe I never have really been cut out to teach. But then what? My artwork certainly doesnt sell!
I would just live off my savlings now, or limp towards the retirement finishing line next year
But now all those shrill voices from earlier on are now shrieking at me from within I am a useless human being. Yelled at at home, at school, once memorably in front of the whole school by the head teacher for spacing out at a critical moment when I didn't respond quickly enough at something happening. I was the school outcast anyway, just join in the scapegoating, why mot?
