The purpose of this thread is to share your thoughts, whatever's on your mind whether it's something positive or negative. Think of it like you're in a safe room, lying on a nice sofa talking to someone who understands. I've done this for a while in RL so thought I'd try it out here see if it helps anyone. It helps me.
You don't have to reply to people if you don't want to. It's just about unloading your thoughts as I think we all know how it feels to be weighed down with thoughts, especially the negative ones.
So the main thought on my mind at the moment is whether or not I should try some sport again. I was always in to sport from a young age and obsessed over it, one of the things that led to my autism diagnosis. I did rugby, football, surfing, tennis, basketball and running. When surfing I caught a wave wrong and fell, got injured, pretty badly and almost drowned. I haven't done any sport since then. I still keep fit but I'm not actively playing sport.
So the other week my mate Cooper came over on the Saturday as he usually does but this time said there's a program at the local cove where a school group will be and it's going to be a bit of an education thing and telling them about sport, possibly show them a little surfing. Nothing major, just show them the ropes.
Am I interested?
Yes.
But also no.
I goofed last time. There's no getting away from that. I made a mistake and the waves were in control, my back all but broken and my lung on fire. But the idea of encouraging kids and people to actively take up sport or at least be a little more active, eat healthy, it's intriguing and highly tempting. But I feel scared to get involved. Anxiety is high and the accident put me off, but I do miss it all so I'm in two minds....
Why is the battle against my own mind so hard!??