Did anyone this week and last find themselves stimming a fair bit during that? It’s like the empathy feedback loop was so intense that it somehow made that adaptive behaviour much more constant for me than during many other things I’d ever watch. I don’t have dramatic stims normally, but i had interlaced fingers, drumming, tapping, my foot was going, I was digging into my palms with my opposite thumb, and I started pulling eyelashes and eyebrow hairs out, something I do relatively seldom these days but has been a lifelong habit.
Did anyone this week and last find themselves stimming a fair bit during that? It’s like the empathy feedback loop was so intense that it somehow made that adaptive behaviour much more constant for me than during many other things I’d ever watch. I don’t have dramatic stims normally, but i had interlaced fingers, drumming, tapping, my foot was going, I was digging into my palms with my opposite thumb, and I started pulling eyelashes and eyebrow hairs out, something I do relatively seldom these days but has been a lifelong habit.
Yes, there was a bit near the end when they showed all 4 people featured stimming in some way and I suddenly realised that I had for some time been rocking back and forth.
I wanted to relate more to the ‘change upsets me’ giy as that’s my biggest challenge too. I need routine, continuity. But the focus was so much on precision timing (not something I’m good at) that the larger issue of life changes, the restlessness of others, societal judgement of people who rely on the finding one niche thing and sticking to it to cope etc. got a little too backgrounded. In the end, I tho k it was CP himself who I could most relate to in terms of best alignment. I don’t have his calm contained demeanour though, wish I did - it’s so dignified!
