A Bit Of Fun

Pikl said:

I'm not allowed to tell them

Why is that?

If it gets out to the parents, because of stigma, they may remove their children, and my boss has a business to run.

That's crazy. What do they think you are, an axe murderer?

She could be onto something there. I think I would be more confident if I could stim.

I can only understand neurotypical people if they are pleasant to me. Otherwise, I'm lost and bewildered.

Pikl said:

I think trying to hide that I'm different makes me appear weird in a different way.

Oh yeah. My wife thinks that I would appear less weird if I had the confident not to mask with people.

If someone starts on a topic that interests me, then I will be extremely talkative. To the point where I follow people so I can keep talking. It's embarrassing to realise later that they were likely trying to get away from me.

I tend to prefer my own company. Without the confidence boost of an interesting topic, I feel very awkward. I think trying to hide that I'm different makes me appear weird in a different way.

That would have been me too, although my parents were more encouraging of something like that.

I think I've forgotten more than I ever knew to begin with.

Funny how kids know more than adults. 

I remember being quite young, we were visiting family on Boxing Day, there was a quiz on tv, I was laying on the floor with cousins, children didn’t get chairs, I was told to shut up, I was shouting out the quiz answers” be quiet, what can you know?” Only actually all the right answers!

I wasn't told that bluntly, but I learnt early on that my desire to talk about "serious" things wasn't reciprocated other people and as I have never been good at small talk, I just stopped talking. And haven't re-started.

I was a 7yr old that really wanted to discuss concepts and ideas, I was always told "shut up talking nonsense" by my mum.

I was a 7yr old that really wanted to discuss concepts and ideas, I was always told "shut up talking nonsense" by my mum.

She could be onto something there. I think I would be more confident if I could stim.

I can only understand neurotypical people if they are pleasant to me. Otherwise, I'm lost and bewildered.

Pikl said:

I think trying to hide that I'm different makes me appear weird in a different way.

Oh yeah. My wife thinks that I would appear less weird if I had the confident not to mask with people.

If someone starts on a topic that interests me, then I will be extremely talkative. To the point where I follow people so I can keep talking. It's embarrassing to realise later that they were likely trying to get away from me.

I tend to prefer my own company. Without the confidence boost of an interesting topic, I feel very awkward. I think trying to hide that I'm different makes me appear weird in a different way.

I wasn't told that bluntly, but I learnt early on that my desire to talk about "serious" things wasn't reciprocated other people and as I have never been good at small talk, I just stopped talking. And haven't re-started.