today isn't the best day not suicidal but PMS

WHAT BASICALLY HAPPENED WAS BECAUSE OF THE CONTENT OF THE EMAILS I SEND I NOW AM IN SERIOUS TROUBLE WITH COLLEGE CAUSE MY MENTOR SAID  to me today i now know why . what basically happened was because of the emails i sent to my lecturers about suicide this week i now am in an meeting on wednesday next week for the emails and how much i've been saying the *** word to them which i now know why sarah and hannah finished with me and why now no more social service workers want to talk to me anymore. It's as if my worst living nightmare has happened in real life now and i can't do anything to help fix this . all because of my lecturers this happened not going to say what they said here but yeah .