I freaking LOVE Christmas it’s my favourite time of year. Ever since I was small I’d stare at every Christmas light, press every Christmas noise making button there was and I could happily sit and stare and press for hours. I love the smell of tinsel (I’m told that it doesn’t have a smell but to me it does and I love it) Everything is so happy and sparkly and Ugh I just love it!
but the social side makes me uncomfortable. I hate attention. I find it hard to say thank you and sound like I mean it even though I really do. I have a hard time buying people presents they might like. And half the time I want to keep the things for myself haha I don’t though. Sometimes I feel like because I love the lights and feeling of Christmas that “im not autistic enough” for people to understand that I am still finding things hard and I’m not being ungrateful by saying thank you in a flat tone. I can’t recognise it on other people let alone myself.
How do you cope with Christmas?