Published on 12, July, 2020
I have to admit it's not my fav time of year. I liked it when I was really little because of Santa and presents but now I'm an adult it just makes me anxious. Everything about it causes me anxiety and discomfort. The shops and town become super busy and loud, bright lights are flashing everywhere, it's colder usually, everything gets expensive and family always mix and party which I find very hard to cope with. I just want to hide away for the whole month and come back in January. I know it's not Christmas yet but it's closing in fast and I'm already anxious and dreading it.
I love Christmas, but I think that is because I love it as long as it is how I have planned for it to be I don't like it when there are too many plans that other people are trying to organise that are overlapping on what I want to do that are making things overly busy and complicated. (re-reading that sentence feels like how fast my brain goes at Christmas time). Also it is a relief for it to be a winter holiday that doesn't require fireworks (love the lights, the noise I am not a fan of)
I should say I don't like the commercialisation of Christmas, and Christmas shopping is a big no-no. However, Christmas Cinnamon flavour and smells are amazing, and I know that these can happen at other times of year, but my excitement levels for them just increase in Winter