Beginning to doubt

Just a thought that popped into my head the other day. 

I went through university 4 years ago. I wasn’t diagnosed with ASD, ADHD or any of the learning difficulties such as Dyslexia until after I’d left university. 

I managed, with everything undiagnosed, and without support through the whole 3 years, and got a 2:2 at the end (studying childhood and youth studies). I know I moved away to university and struggled quite badly with mental health and stresses of being away from home. 

Now my doubts are about the grade I managed to get, and whether it could’ve been better with support from student services, whether they should’ve noticed and helped me sooner to get diagnosed, and I’m kicking myself for not doing better, but also acknowledge the fact that I was basically at a disadvantage to other students because I needed help and wasn’t getting it, even after asking for help, the student support would only help if I had a diagnosed disability or health condition. 

Anyone else had similar experiences with higher education? I’m not sure whether I should’ve been proud of The 2:2 knowing now how bad of a grade it really is. 

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  • Don't kick yourself, and Hell yes! You should be proud.

    I'm laughing a bit because I recognise and empathise. I'm big time dyslexic, not that anyone knew what to do with that to help me at university in the 80s and no one knew I was autistic, I didn't find out until last year. I got a 2:2 too, in guess what? - Modern Foreign Languages - speak three of them; taught myself Italian, can't spell in any of them for toffee and never could take phonetic dictation. 

    Go me though! Since then, I've done a battery of OU and other post-grad stuff. Straight distinctions in them all. I turn out to be a natural with higher level research skills. Still no help, 'cos I STILL didn't know I was autistic, albeit I'd found a great deal of work arounds for the dyslexia by then.

    Hey, every tiny achievement you have made, you made on an unlevel playing field and made it anyway. You've battled harder, worked harder and overcome more than any of your class mates who got higher grades. And you did that because you used other facets of your intellectual strengths to compensate for the difficulties. You have to be one smart cookie to do that. Go look at yourself in the mirror and smile

    Yeah, but if you do a post grad, kick until you get the support :-)

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  • Don't kick yourself, and Hell yes! You should be proud.

    I'm laughing a bit because I recognise and empathise. I'm big time dyslexic, not that anyone knew what to do with that to help me at university in the 80s and no one knew I was autistic, I didn't find out until last year. I got a 2:2 too, in guess what? - Modern Foreign Languages - speak three of them; taught myself Italian, can't spell in any of them for toffee and never could take phonetic dictation. 

    Go me though! Since then, I've done a battery of OU and other post-grad stuff. Straight distinctions in them all. I turn out to be a natural with higher level research skills. Still no help, 'cos I STILL didn't know I was autistic, albeit I'd found a great deal of work arounds for the dyslexia by then.

    Hey, every tiny achievement you have made, you made on an unlevel playing field and made it anyway. You've battled harder, worked harder and overcome more than any of your class mates who got higher grades. And you did that because you used other facets of your intellectual strengths to compensate for the difficulties. You have to be one smart cookie to do that. Go look at yourself in the mirror and smile

    Yeah, but if you do a post grad, kick until you get the support :-)

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