On a scale 1 - 10 , How anxious, depressed are you?

10 being very anxious and depressed and 1 being not at all.

I would say mine is a 8 or 9, I don't even know why! I worry about some things that aren't normal that I have to do rituals and repetetive behanviours just to control them from not happening.

I'm sharing it on here because I feel that this would be the best place because it's for aspies so I hope people are more likely to understand and also I don't have many friends, quite alone all the time as well, before I was still like this and I thought the reason behind it was that I was unemployed and I'm a faliure and if I got somewhere and got a job, the depression and everything would go, but not I sucessfully got a apprenticeship, I still feel the same way at times! I can't talk to anyone in my family properly as I don't get on well with them and I feel they don't understand me, I can talk to some people in my family but only for a bit.

I have 3 close friends, 1 friend that I did like who still hangs out with us every Saturday but now I hate him and I hate 1 of my other close friends as well because of something that they did.

Do you worry about things a lot and feeling down at random times of the day. The problem is also that I don't even understand what my emotions and feelings actually are sometimes.