Just wondering how aspergers or other autisim diabilities effects everypne as well.
So yeah, I'm 22 and found out that I had aspergers a few months ago. I notice it's effecting my everyday life but the thing is I think it's not the "main" thing what's effecting my daily life apart from the communication side and the expressing emotions. But I have OCD linked with aspergers and this is what's effecting my daily life. With all the rituals because of my anxiety, thinking of colours, bright lines of light going in a certain direction, having to look left for a colour that feels "right" and then right for a colour that feels "right" and certain colours means bad things are going to happen, I get easily annoyed and irratated at home etc etc.
Also, when I'm out every Saturday with my friends, I find it very difficult to think of new subjects to talk about so I repeat the same subjects over and over again, I get bored easily because we don't do anything interesting quite a lot of the time, I prefer spending time on my own instead of being with other people, I collect Blu Rays, games, I keep receipts of everything I buy so I know the exact time and date I bought it. Also I started to do this thing where whenever I start watching a movie on Blu Ray, I write on a peice of paper the exact time I started watching the movie, the date I watched the movie and the time I finished watching the movie and I write any other relevant details on it as well.
I find it really difficult to think of subjects to talk about and to speak to someone I don't know very well and I have only 3 close frienda which are not that close because I only see them once a week. Sometimes, I just get a bit depressed because I have no close friends that are girls and I really want to go clubbing to meet new people but I find it extremely difficult and uncomfortable when I went last time and it caused a lot of anxiety. I feel lonely but I enjoy doing everything I like on my own at the same time. It's just so complex with these disabilities.I feel like noone can understand me and I can't even understand myself at times.
When communicating, I find it difficult to say what I wanted to say, like I think of something, then the words come out differently to what I meant, This only happens when I'm speaking to people that I don't know very well. And before I say anything to someone, I always think really hard about the outcome and I think, probably it's not good to say this, or they'll find it boring, rudem, offensive etc etc or they don't want to speak to me!
I think this probably is why I tend to withdraw myself from everyone even my family because I spend all my time in my room on video games and the computer doing the same thing for a long period of time on my days off work and after work everyday. I feel less stressed at work!
And yeah, this is another problem I just realised about myself, when I try to get to a point or just a simple question to describe what I mean, I end up going into way more detail than required to describe what I really want the answers to be from someone else. I need things spoken / explained to me and presented to me as clear as possible and in the appropiate and easiest language for me to understand otherwise I get confused.
Does the aspergers effect anyone else in a simular way?
