Phobia- Help please

When you say its only for longer pieces of work, do you mean only academic work/essays? You also mention paper and pencil/pen? Does this happen when you work on computer too?

Without knowing all the details I'm not sure these suggestions would be helpful, but you could try considering essays in terms of answering several short questions. By which I mean you take your essay question and you work out the questions that you need to address within that, then you answer each of those before finessing the pieces into a larger piece. If you spaced it over days it might only feel like you were writing shorter pieces and perhaps wouldn't trigger the anxiety.

If its the actual physical act of writing that's causing you problems, then you could try using a sound recorder (phone app, dictaphone, etc) to speak your notes into. Alternatively, perhaps using something more graphical like spider diagrams or bullet pointed lists could help. You could even, though this might involve some financial outlay, use dictation software and be able to create your essays by speaking them into a computer rather than manually writing them. I know authors who write books like this, though I believe you need to very carefully format and proof the work afterwards as no dictation software is perfect.

Also, have you spoken to your college/university/course provider about this? You could find that they might be able to suggest accommodations that could help you return to study.

When you say its only for longer pieces of work, do you mean only academic work/essays? You also mention paper and pencil/pen? Does this happen when you work on computer too?

Without knowing all the details I'm not sure these suggestions would be helpful, but you could try considering essays in terms of answering several short questions. By which I mean you take your essay question and you work out the questions that you need to address within that, then you answer each of those before finessing the pieces into a larger piece. If you spaced it over days it might only feel like you were writing shorter pieces and perhaps wouldn't trigger the anxiety.

If its the actual physical act of writing that's causing you problems, then you could try using a sound recorder (phone app, dictaphone, etc) to speak your notes into. Alternatively, perhaps using something more graphical like spider diagrams or bullet pointed lists could help. You could even, though this might involve some financial outlay, use dictation software and be able to create your essays by speaking them into a computer rather than manually writing them. I know authors who write books like this, though I believe you need to very carefully format and proof the work afterwards as no dictation software is perfect.

Also, have you spoken to your college/university/course provider about this? You could find that they might be able to suggest accommodations that could help you return to study.

Apologies for the delay in replying. Yes, I have accommodations from the university but they do not fully appreciate my difficulties. I have found a few other university websites that offer suggestions for writing problems and I am trying to work through these.