Earliest Memory

Having now been a member of the NAS Community for approximately a fortnight, I thought it was about time I got around to starting a discussion, as opposed to simply commenting on discussions started by other members.

The following is an event that happened more than 40 years ago (before anyone knew I was autistic), which I remember in full technicolour glory...

As I had no siblings, my mother had been keen to socialise me with other children before I started nursery school, so had taken me to a playgroup. I guess this means that I would have been aged about 3 or 4 years old.

The playgroup was in a room at the town's rugby club, and the rugby club was located in the town's large park, where there was also a leisure centre and outdoor ski slope.

I remember walking into this room (the playgroup), and my senses being hit by an overwhelming and unpleasant smell of plasticine, along with other smells/odours that I considered equally as unpleasant.

Some of the children were playing together, whilst others were playing on their own. My mother was keen for me to join them, but I didn't want to and refused to leave her side. The more she and the playgroup staff attempted to persuade me to join the other children, the more I protested and insisted that I wanted to be taken back home. Being in this strange and unfamiliar environment was just too traumatic for me. In hindsight, I guess I'd displayed all the hallmarks of an autistic meltdown.

Fortunately (for me), I had caused my mother so much stress that day that she never attempted to take me back to that playgroup.

If you are on the spectrum, do you have any vivid memories of early childhood?


Edited to add: I thought I would ask this question because I sometimes wonder if those of us who are on the Spectrum are better at remembering events from our early childhood.

Also, if your memories are traumatic, please don't feel obliged to share them unless you feel comfortable doing so.

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  • This has been an interesting thread to read. I have some quite early memories, though I can't date them very accurately, except that I do remember a very hot summer which must have been 1976 and I'd have been 4 that autumn. I remember playing in the garden in a den we made from some kind of pruned bushes/hedge branches. And the slide being very hot.

    Also we moved house when I was about 5 which dates memories of the old house, which I remember the layout of vividly. I can remember the carpet in the back room and sitting with my Mum leaning on the radiator and she was reading to me. I remember my bedroom, the wallpaper (a William Morris with dandelions), the curtains (Paddington bear) and the furniture (I actually still have the wardrobe!). I remember the mark on the wall of my parents' bedroom where Dad fell through the ceiling! (He was OK).

    A lot of it is very visual, with some sensations, like the rough fur of my teddy bear and the smell of his head. The feeling and the weird visual of how the ground moved in a pushchair if you didn't look round but just kept your eyes fixed. I can't access sounds, that's odd, maybe some music, Mum used to sing to us and there are some songs which are very evocative to me which I know she used to sing, so maybe some music which makes me feel a certain way is linked to very old memories.

    I do remember stuff about infant school too, but those memories can't be as early. It's been fun remembering. Most of my earliest memories are nice, not all the school ones are of course...

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  • This has been an interesting thread to read. I have some quite early memories, though I can't date them very accurately, except that I do remember a very hot summer which must have been 1976 and I'd have been 4 that autumn. I remember playing in the garden in a den we made from some kind of pruned bushes/hedge branches. And the slide being very hot.

    Also we moved house when I was about 5 which dates memories of the old house, which I remember the layout of vividly. I can remember the carpet in the back room and sitting with my Mum leaning on the radiator and she was reading to me. I remember my bedroom, the wallpaper (a William Morris with dandelions), the curtains (Paddington bear) and the furniture (I actually still have the wardrobe!). I remember the mark on the wall of my parents' bedroom where Dad fell through the ceiling! (He was OK).

    A lot of it is very visual, with some sensations, like the rough fur of my teddy bear and the smell of his head. The feeling and the weird visual of how the ground moved in a pushchair if you didn't look round but just kept your eyes fixed. I can't access sounds, that's odd, maybe some music, Mum used to sing to us and there are some songs which are very evocative to me which I know she used to sing, so maybe some music which makes me feel a certain way is linked to very old memories.

    I do remember stuff about infant school too, but those memories can't be as early. It's been fun remembering. Most of my earliest memories are nice, not all the school ones are of course...

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