Published on 12, July, 2020
i've noticed that alcohol seems to be the thing which social occasions revolve around and it is expected of me that when i turn 18 i start drinking alcohol.
drinking even a sip of alcohol makes me feel sick
i have emetophobia which worsens this
i don't like the idea of losing control
however, i worry that this will get worse when i go to university with all the peer pressure to drink when i genuinely don't want to and i don't like the thought of it but i don't want to be seen as boring and well an outcast but i guess i always feel like an outcast.
my mum made mince pies and i happened to have the one with tons of alcohol in it and i feel sick right now.
alcohol always seems to be the source of entertainment generally.
i don't want to turn this into another rant but i just hate the way the world is
It does seem the norm to want to drink alcohol, or ‘get wasted’. I don’t see the point. I hated it as a young adult, and barely drunk. Of course I tried a few things, and didn’t enjoy the upset stomach, headache or hangover (even though I only had 1-2 drinks).
I can feel the alcohol run through my body as soon as I’ve drunk some.I’m 48 now. I know what I can tolerate, and also what I enjoy, thought it’s still rare for me to have a drink. When I do, I savour it. A glass is suffice. And it last for ages.
thank you