Published on 12, July, 2020
i've noticed that alcohol seems to be the thing which social occasions revolve around and it is expected of me that when i turn 18 i start drinking alcohol.
drinking even a sip of alcohol makes me feel sick
i have emetophobia which worsens this
i don't like the idea of losing control
however, i worry that this will get worse when i go to university with all the peer pressure to drink when i genuinely don't want to and i don't like the thought of it but i don't want to be seen as boring and well an outcast but i guess i always feel like an outcast.
my mum made mince pies and i happened to have the one with tons of alcohol in it and i feel sick right now.
alcohol always seems to be the source of entertainment generally.
i don't want to turn this into another rant but i just hate the way the world is
I also have emetophobia and therefore do not want to drink alcohol. I also understand your concerns about feeling out of control, but never feel pressured to do something you are not comfortable with. People at university do seem to associate drinking with socialising but you can socialise in other ways. My sister is at university and she has found a group of friends who accept that she doesn’t drink alcohol.
thank you. i'm just scared that i won't and i also don't want to spend the whole time masking
This may be appealing as I know you like researching autism anyway.
Find a social group you feel safe enough with to unmask. When you search for universities to attend, you could specifically look for societies for autistic/neurodivergent people.
The University of East Anglia has a society run by and for autistic students:
https://www.uea.su/opportunities/society/autismsociety/
I hope this is helpful.