Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi everyone,
I leave a disclaimer at the beginning of each of my messages that I'm not actually diagnosed with autism because like... even though I'm fairly sure I might be autistic despite the doubts that are constantly plaguing me, there is the likelihood that I'm just being a hypochondriac and I'm actually neurotypical as the other 99% of the population.
Anyway, does anyone else get anxious when they have to wait in lines especially for long periods of time or in crowded places like an amusement park? I've never known what's caused me to get so jittery and pace back and forth and hang all over the hand rails and beg my mom/family members to find another ride with a shorter line if we were ever in one that was over half an hour long at our local amusement park. I assumed that lines are just a trigger for my anxiety because I'm a generally impatient person, but could it be more?
I'm still trying to untangle the web that is my life and figure out if I'd qualify for a diagnosis so I'm turning here with the questions that have plagued me for forever as well as trying not to overwhelm the forum. Sorry if I'm bothering anyone with nonsense.
I don’t enjoy them. I’m happy to wait at the post office or in a grocery store. But for a new phone? No. An opening? No also. Not a Club or anything else I’m not really interested in. It’s a precious waste of my life. Waiting is pedestrian and even on a train or a bus I’ll have something to read. I’m a terrible spectator and I don’t like rides but have pretended to for others.
Impatience could be a sign you have untapped talent in need of exploring. You could have an inner vision of what you’re supposed to be doing and waiting is not your Mode of Operation. What would you rather be doing than waiting? Is it something you need to learn to do? I’m not sure how old you are but if you’re in your teens/20s you might be ready to start living your own life.
There’s a version of waiting called “active waiting”. (Vs passive waiting). This could be good to google:)
Thank you! I'm an avid googler so I'm gonna check this out right now.
And its less that there's other things I feel that I could be doing when I'm in line (though that is true of other times when I'm waiting). Its more that I get overwhelmed and anxious as Tassimo described.