I have only 4 close friends and by that I mean the only friends I can hang out with every Saturday. It's just I think with the asperger's, I know it's really difficult for me to make new friends and ask them to go out somewhere with me. I always overthink and end up being negative things. The thing I'm most annoyed about is out of the group of friends I have, 1 of them also has asperger's syndrome like I do but still out of the whole group, even though I feel really comfortable talking to all of them and I can be myself with them, I still feel like I'm the odd one out / been left out during the other days apart from Saturday. That's because one of my friends is in a relationship with a girl who also hangs out with us every Saturday, we were all friends before and then them 2 started being in a relationship.
Then there's the other 2 of my close friends who are male, I asked one with the asperger's if he would like to go and see a movie on Wednesday and use the Orange Wednesday deal but he always goes with my other close friend in the group instead since they already have stuff planned and hang out most of the time! So what I mean is out of our group of 5, even we're all very close friends, after a Saturday, we go our seperate ways until next Saturday so the 2 in a relationship are always staying round eachothers, then the other 2 hang out with eachother most of the time without me anyway. It just makes me feel quite left out in a way. The problem is I want to ask either one but I think if I ask the 2 who are in a relationship, they'll think I'm in the way of them and I don't want to hang around with the other 2 since I really don't like the one without asperger's syndrome, he just really p*sses me off with all the insults and thinking he knows everything, since I do take things literally, I get really annoyed easily with small things.
It just seems like none of them want to even talk to me during the other days.
So yeah, I just don't talk to any of them on the days that are not Saturday and have noone else to talk to everyday since I find it difficult to start conversations with my family as well.
But I do enjoy spending time on my own on video games and movies, their quite fun! Having asperger's is a good thing in a way with all the stuff you can use as a advantage but it'salso depressing in other ways. But I'm glad I found out I have it since I get to know myself better.
