I don’t know where to start as a lot has been said & done since he left 8months ago, we have son, house & pets together, I’m his 1st propper girlfriend everyone else left him after few weeks, I give him his 1st home as he’s always loved with his mum & o give him his 1st child anyways he left over nothing in my eyes we was fine he took us all for expensive meal & next week he came back from his parents & packed his stuff & left said he didn’t feel appreciated which I don’t get because I’m always praising him & buying him things & thanking him anyways it has been up & down 8months because he told me he might be coming back home & he’s made a lot of promises if he comes home he’s buying stuff & taking us places etc, we agreed put the past behind us & start a fresh but that’s easily said than done as he can’t get over what he’s done & said to me in past as he’s arranged to meet girls behind my back & said alsorts of hurtful things but I forgive him because I know he can’t help it & I know part of him wants to be here, his dad recently passed away so I think that has made us closer, we’ve slept together every weekend since we split so to me it’s like we are still kind of together with us talking about if he comes home etc, some days he will talk on the phone for hours & we play x box together, he likes to sit & watch & learn things on YouTube & I like to watch to, I’m not well & he said he’s been looking at healthy meals to make us & he wants to help me get better & he told me to wait patiently & stop asking questions, I guess he will come back one day when he’s ready but I know we have something still & im not giving up, he says things like I like fat girls because they have big boo & bum but I’m not fat & I don’t have them he mentioned he liked, i feel like I’m not good enough for him sometimes but then I tell myself ignore him he don’t mean it, if he didn’t like you he wouldn’t be keeping you waiting all this time & talking about he might come home, he’s decorated our house & bought things around the house so I think he’s getting closer to coming back home, it’s just hard not being able to ask questions like have you found all your stuff yet, he has been put off coming back few times & said he’s not coming back but then he’s ok with me again, I know he will be back I just don’t know when & I don’t want to put pressure on him but it’s hard not to know or ask questions, I just hope he sticks to his promises no more lies, watches what he says, goes for a walk if he’s not feeling himself, alone time downstairs for him to recharge his batteries as he likes to space out on his own, he won’t talk to girls again because he knows if he comes back & leave again I can’t put myself through it no more & I won’t be waiting about for him again
