This is heavy stuff so dont read it if you are of a sensitive nature.
I am a 63 year old kind and gentle loving man.
I was diagnosed as Bipolar 2 after trauma . My father was thought to be Autistic and this week the penny has finally dropped.
So am I. I saw a psychic medium on the 2nd of Feb and she told me that my memories would now come back to me !
To clarify that i am autistic I can remember telephone numbers and car registrations from childhood onwards and i do some pretty strange stuff.
I have been seriously traumatised 8 times in my life. critisized and bullyeid for being quiet and again 1990 2005 2017 for being very clever.
I have known i was sensitive to light and sometimes sound since 1981. Flourescent lighting for me is a nightmare.
I am in Spain for the light !
I started to feel very depressed when the skies went dark last Febuary which coincided with the start of covid.
In the past i have sensed the death of my older sister and they thought i was having a heart attack !..
I have known for some time that i am an empath !.
I have walked up to a person and just said things about them and was right !
This week i looked up my symptoms and they are ones of trauma !
Extreme startle response sensitivity to light and sound aching all over and many more..
I am suicidally depressed in a country with no help.
I dont think i qualify for health care now we have come out of Brexit..
My immune system is destroyed because of heavy metal poisoning as a child.
I need help !¬
What can i do ??
