I am not new to the NAS but I’m new to opening up about my own feelings , I have two children who are twins , a boy and a girl both age 12. I have been struggling with recent events in my life . My wife left at the beginning of the month , she is step parent to my children. She said she left not because she doesn’t love me but because of my son who is diagnosed with ADHD & ASD . His verbal outbursts towards her lead to this . I thought I was dealing with this but it would seem nothing I say to my son ever really sinks in . He can’t understand social norms and his behaviour is very immature and inappropriate.
I feel I have tried everything and did learn on the all about autism course to have to pick your battles however this was a hard battle and I felt torn between the both of them . I feel discusted and ashamed of myself that I couldn’t manage this situation effectively. The worst thing is I have no support from anywhere, I have tried so hard and have been in the process with an EHCP since feb but then the lockdown came and everything went on hold . Bad timing .
I have insecurities about my own self in ways to deal with the whole situation which have arisen from trying anything and everything and nothing works effectively or not for very long .
after 6 years of marriage and the struggling every day with my son , the stress and his anxiety eats me alive and I take that with me each day to work until I pick him up and arrive home to be contacted by his school about problems arising from the day . I wonder if my emotions are affecting him and I am so sad.I was so stressed about the situation with both of them that I felt I couldn’t cope anymore . I grabbed my wife by the throat with the constant criticism and all I felt fear and Shane that I couldn’t do enough of a good job to parent effectively. I feel so ashamed and I know I need help but I was afraid to ask as it makes me feel like I’ve let everyone down including myself .
my confidence has gone abs I need to get it back and try to get some help with all of the above issues