just a space for people can say what they have been doing today so we can keep up and in touch
just a space for people can say what they have been doing today so we can keep up and in touch
Better day yesterday, gran is hanging in there but she's not long for the world I wouldn't think. My mum and I had a good talk about what's coming and I think she's ready for gran to go as well.
Had a shift at work, my manager offered to get it covered given the circumstances but I said I'd cover it, my work isn't far from grans house and it was just a short shift so good to get my mind off things.
Scotland won! I love Scottish rugby, support my local team and my husband plays 7s. A lot of people think I like rugby because my husband does but I am more into it than him. Looking forward to the Wales/Ireland game today.
It's a little bittersweet because we usually get a season ticket for scotland and go to all the home games but no spectating so it's all at home on the TV. I'm just happy we have anything new to watch.
Have realised that I'm doing too much and burning out. I know that's not good. I need to apologise to support worker as I was a bit quick to disregard his observation that this was happening last week but I think now that he was right to bring it up. There's some things that I can't change like my gran dying, I already had a scheduled call with the university tomorrow to discuss my placements so I'll speak to the lecturer on the phone about my stress levels and see if they can recommend something and extend some of my coursework to take the pressure off. I've got the stress management paperwork from work and I've filled in what I can, support worker has agreed to help me with the bits I struggle with tomorrow (it's so aimed at neurotypicals it's ridiculous).
I've got all the stuff I need to do better with what I'm eating so I'm just going to get on with that, I have no excuses really except being lazy and not prioritising my own health. I need to commit to leaving the unit during work, they've got us having lunch in our own area so I'm not getting a real break and I think that's contributing.
Husbands mental health is improving, he's getting heavy into his visualisations and meditations but he's been using my account on the app we like so I'm going to make him sign up himself so I can use mine at work more. We get free access to the premium app through our work so it's not a cost thing, I think his head just wasn't in it when he needed it most and it was easier to just let him use mine so he wasn't getting overwhelmed but he's much better now and will be able to tackle getting the code from his work.
Not sure what else I can do. My manager is very supportive of me taking time off but I need the routine more than anything so I don't think that would be helpful at this point in time.
I'm glad you've noticed you're doing too much, I'd wondered myself from some posts, and as someone who does too much!
Could you create a new routine for time off, like use it for uni work? I know I find new routines hard to adjust to but i'm getting more disciplined at it.
I'm terrible at working out what I'm supposed to do when there's no guidance or structure. Realistically I'd just sit about with a blanket or hoody if I was off work, probably any good diet would go to pot as well.
Work is fine when supervisor is not acknowledging that I exist (though I think she thinks she's punishing me by doing this) so I really just need her to back off a bit. I might ask if I can work on the other site for a while, I hate our other hospital but respite from my supervisor might help.
I think I have everything and everyone I need to avoid a full burn out but I need to work on acknowledging when I need help and reaching out to the people who can help me so that's what I'm going to do and I'll just keep in mind that if I need it I can step away from work for a while.
I'm terrible at working out what I'm supposed to do when there's no guidance or structure. Realistically I'd just sit about with a blanket or hoody if I was off work, probably any good diet would go to pot as well.
Work is fine when supervisor is not acknowledging that I exist (though I think she thinks she's punishing me by doing this) so I really just need her to back off a bit. I might ask if I can work on the other site for a while, I hate our other hospital but respite from my supervisor might help.
I think I have everything and everyone I need to avoid a full burn out but I need to work on acknowledging when I need help and reaching out to the people who can help me so that's what I'm going to do and I'll just keep in mind that if I need it I can step away from work for a while.