Going mental

After yesterday's job interview, on Zoom, my brain melted. Then I drove to Coalisland - a town ten miles from where I live - and was making an exhibition of myself with poor parking skills. Then, I got stinking thinking on the way home.

I slept fourteen hours, from seven yesterday evening to nine this morning. Then I was going for a drive, and pulled over to remove a black bin bag lying on the road. I could easily have been knocked dead.

I'm skating on thin ice.

Yesterday, I learned about the marshmallow experiment. I am far too impulsive, which has affected my adult life. While I have the intelligence, I don't have the common sense or patience to cope with grown up decisions.

I remember a Teacher telling me that I have so much knowledge, but little ability to apply it. On reflection, School wasn't the right environment for me. I never pulled my weight as a child. Now I have to deal with the consequences.

I plan a car-free weekend.

  • I think it is a combination of many things. There are too many people with degrees so positions are competitive and unfortunately many employers value social skills above all else including academic ability and experience.I have even read (and from personal experience feel) that interviewers (who will be your boss) can feel threatened that you have a better qualification than them and won't hire you.

    I once read an article about how there are many intelligent people on the spectrum who are unable to work in science or engineering because of their social difficulties, there is not really any understanding from employers.

    Also nowadays not many companies want to spend money on training people who could just leave or lose their job after a couple of years. I have heard the term gig economy where it makes more sense for companies to just get someone with the experience in to do a project rather than invest in training up graduates

  • Congratulations on doing a Zoom interview. I have always gave up the job application process at any sort of video interview stage even after passing the tests as I just can't cope with it.

    Sometimes parking can be awkward with not much space to move and trying to park with other cars moving around you so I wouldn't worry about it.

    I can relate to what you mention about lots of knowledge but unable to apply it. I stayed on at school, went to college for a year and then 5 years at uni to do a masters degree in engineering. I only had two short jobs that didn't last long due to social difficulties and no one giving me any training etc. I gave up on my engineering career for many reasons but how crazy is it, all that knowledge and no one would employ me and train me to apply it!