CHRISTMAS TIME PAIN

Christmas is time of pain for me. The noise, peoples behaviour, the stimulas, the social change, people drinking and smoking, loud music, how to feel happy when you feel like *** but everyone is happy(or pretend happy with drink in them) it feels so unpredictable and my routine goes out the window. Anyone else ? CAN SANTA CANCEL CHRISTMAS, so I can have a time of peace. Undecided It is not like I hate Christmas, I just hate the affect of Christmas has on me.