Hello, I am awaiting an assessment, which is due on the 20th April. I have been waiting 19 months and in that time have convinced myself, with reading everything I can, that I do have autism. I am getting very stressed and anxious leading up to the appointment Incase it’s not what I thought. This is causing me to have emotional breakdowns at work. What’s not helping is the current changing environment, I work as a receptionist in a GP surgery so things are stressed. I feel I cannot cope with the changes at work, working at different sites, working with different people and the job it’s self not being the same. I’ve signed myself off but feel so guilty and work are asking me how they can help but I cannot explain it properly. What if I’m not autistic? why can’t I cope? I feel so guilt because I usually step up to challenges but there is no end and I have little stamina. I know this is rambly but does this sound familiar to anyone. I just hate feeling alone - any advice would be gratefully received.
