Confusion, am I autistic? What does it mean? How does understanding my autistic traits aids making better sense of this world?

I am usually a very quiet person and happy just being with my own thought. I don't usually need to go out and mingle, but I can be sociable and friendly too if I have to (with effort). Recently, I suspect I may be autistic, usually, I am the one friends turn to when they need advice or a fresh perspective on things, in fact, Im almost always became close with friends during the time when they were most emotionally vulnerable (for example, there is this friend within a closed group, we don't really share the same interest, we just happened to be there whenever the group hangs out together, however, the frequency of us chatting outside the group increased recently, after her father diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, on top of that, she found herself overwhelmed in confusion with her recent engagement and increased anxiety over wedding planning stuff), probably bcz of my tendency to comfort other and a strange sense of obligation to reach out .

This recent realization of my ASD traits worries me a lot, I kept wondering what does it mean along the journey of pursuing my ambition, in addition to that, I have recently moved to UK trying to settle into a new environment and lifestyle, undertaking an extremely brain power taxing master degree. I can't talk to my friends about this bcz they are deep enough in their own ***, I wish there were someone who is mentally strong, who is capable of holding substantial conversation to talk to, to help alleviate some of my anxiety.

Who do you usually turn to when you are in dire need of emotional support.

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  • I can really identify with a lot if what you say. I became a lot closer with one of my friends this year after she (well both of ys) had a pretty rough time.

    Dont let realisation of traits worry you! Let it enlighten you to who you really are. Since realising i have AS i have put coping strategies in place.

    As for who to turn to. Im lucky to have a great partner and its always him. He IS my best friend. Or, i internalise it. I do this a lot with my thoughts.I struggle talking with female friends about my problems becayae i think ...a) my problems arent that important....b)when i have tried it hasnt come out right and they seem to think there isnt really much of a problem so we move on to another subject...c)im not very good at articulating how i feel and sometimes not sure and sometimes feel awkward talking about myself in this way and dont really want to confront a problem.

    I try to offer practical solutions to friends whereas i think theyre emotional support types. My partner is very much a practical solution person which is maybe why i speak to him more.

    Talj to your GP you may need some talking therapy or see if your workplace offers counselling. It might be a start to get things off your chest. Good luck.

    P.S. this forum has helped me a lot to splurge out thoughts (as you can see above)   :-)

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  • I can really identify with a lot if what you say. I became a lot closer with one of my friends this year after she (well both of ys) had a pretty rough time.

    Dont let realisation of traits worry you! Let it enlighten you to who you really are. Since realising i have AS i have put coping strategies in place.

    As for who to turn to. Im lucky to have a great partner and its always him. He IS my best friend. Or, i internalise it. I do this a lot with my thoughts.I struggle talking with female friends about my problems becayae i think ...a) my problems arent that important....b)when i have tried it hasnt come out right and they seem to think there isnt really much of a problem so we move on to another subject...c)im not very good at articulating how i feel and sometimes not sure and sometimes feel awkward talking about myself in this way and dont really want to confront a problem.

    I try to offer practical solutions to friends whereas i think theyre emotional support types. My partner is very much a practical solution person which is maybe why i speak to him more.

    Talj to your GP you may need some talking therapy or see if your workplace offers counselling. It might be a start to get things off your chest. Good luck.

    P.S. this forum has helped me a lot to splurge out thoughts (as you can see above)   :-)

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  • Thanks  and  for your lovely advice. After have these bottled up i finally broke down and cried last night, I am glad that no one was there to see it. I have sent my school counselling team an email hoping to get some info about ASD as soon as the term starts, also started taking some Omega 3 and Vitamin D3 to see if they helps (apparently ASD suffer from various vitamin and fatty acids deficiencies, which worsen the coping mechanism). After this, im gonna head out for a run, i know running always puts me in good mood, get away from restless thinking and analysing. I have a lot of assignment to work on and soon my housemate will be back from year end holiday, there goes the privilege of having the whole house to myself, and abstain from external stimulation, but i will learn to cope with it. Wishing two of you a very Happy New Year Slight smile