One of the saddest events in my life

This happened in 2000.  But I am sharing it now to get it off my chest and because it still affects my confidence today, whenever I remember it.

Back in 2000, I was a part time carer and I was looking for part time retail work because of their very flexible working hours.

I had applied to all the local supermarkets and major stores.  I had got two interviews but been turned down.

The job centre suggested a two week course which was run in conjunction with the city council and a major supermarket.  At the end of the course we were guaranteed an actual interview for a real job with a new supermarket which was opening nearby.

At the end of the first week I was called into the training centres manager's office.  And he asked me to leave.

I asked why because I was unaware of having done  anything wrong.  

At first he refused to give a reason, they just wanted me to leave!

After much hesitation, he told me.

  1. I did not fit in with the rest of the group.
  2. I didn't belong here.
  3. The trainers were terrified of me.
  4. They just didn't want me there.
  5. No supermarket would employ me in a million years.
  6. I should just leave.

So I left.  Feeling rejected and dejected.