The fine line between needing to be social and needing solitude.

Does anyone else have problems with this balancing act? If not I'm just getting this off my chest.

I feel odd when I'm with people, without being insulting towards other humans I find they frustrate the life out of me. I find people just don't really have much valid to say. At the moment I'm sick of hearing people being demonised for claiming benifits, by people who claim working tax credits, child tax credits etc. I'm not in a position were I personally need to claim benifits, however I'm not into the demonisation of the ill and unemployed. It's not only this issue, people just being wide of the mark on lots of topics, science denialist's tend to be particulary frustrating.

I'd like to get on with people a lot more, I enjoy being social (within my small circle of friends). But I just find people stupid, ignorant and inhumane. I'm generally misanthropic and tend to upset people quite frequently by telling them that human life is cheap and explaining about a history of slave labour, concentration camps etc. Well I say upset, I think it just annoys people as It questions thier humanitarian ideals. I suppose thier lies my problem, hypocritical humanist whom don't see that they treat humans particulary badly. For instance they want to save the world and help African children, but have a poor attitude to work colleages.

I went to Auschwitz recently and people seem perplexed that I didn't get upset from the visit. I find it very odd: when I here people talking about how they think other people should be dealt with for not working (and not conforming to thier belief system), I can easily see how something as big as Nazi Germany could escalate. I find it so odd that people think that work is the only important thing in life. Surely there has to be more to life than self regulated slavery?

Today I cut my grass with mp3 player on and it was just bliss. Solitude and the world blanked out.

Wierdly, I still crave some social activities even tho people frustrate the life out of me. 

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  • Yes it was the same situation. Apply for two jobs per week. I had a trade, so for the first six month's I could apply for whatever I wanted and I genuinely applied for every position I saw for that said trade (Industrial Pipework). I wasn't getting anywere with that, so I done some music technology courses to stop me pulling my hair out, but I was willing to leave them if a job came along. The job centre didnt seem to like me doing these jobs.

    I found it difficult to survive on £45 per week. I also felt useless at the amount of knock backs I was getting. After six months I got sent to a place with I refer to as a job seekers death camp. I had to apply for jobs "beeing supervised", I felt terrible doing this.  I hatied the people I was forced to mix with and I found the staff were bullies. They were trying to make me go kyacking with these people. I was nervous enough about going kyacking in the ice cold sea March, let alone with some of these folk. So I just invoked complaints proceedures every two minutes and made thier lifes difficult. If I get a ASD diagnosis (as im expecting) the impact of all of this makes more sense. If I was still at home, id have just cancelled my claim. However living out of home was very difficult especially as I was used to earning about £380 per week then.

    However in the background to this I was still applying for jobs and going through UCAS to go to Uni as a fail safe. I went to Uni and loved it. Not looked back since.

    No I've never had www debates on the benifits system. I could just imagine it winding me up no end.

    Sticks and cans of larger are the way forward. I've seen people in blissful utopia with these two objects, Im sure it brings out the inner primate.

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  • Yes it was the same situation. Apply for two jobs per week. I had a trade, so for the first six month's I could apply for whatever I wanted and I genuinely applied for every position I saw for that said trade (Industrial Pipework). I wasn't getting anywere with that, so I done some music technology courses to stop me pulling my hair out, but I was willing to leave them if a job came along. The job centre didnt seem to like me doing these jobs.

    I found it difficult to survive on £45 per week. I also felt useless at the amount of knock backs I was getting. After six months I got sent to a place with I refer to as a job seekers death camp. I had to apply for jobs "beeing supervised", I felt terrible doing this.  I hatied the people I was forced to mix with and I found the staff were bullies. They were trying to make me go kyacking with these people. I was nervous enough about going kyacking in the ice cold sea March, let alone with some of these folk. So I just invoked complaints proceedures every two minutes and made thier lifes difficult. If I get a ASD diagnosis (as im expecting) the impact of all of this makes more sense. If I was still at home, id have just cancelled my claim. However living out of home was very difficult especially as I was used to earning about £380 per week then.

    However in the background to this I was still applying for jobs and going through UCAS to go to Uni as a fail safe. I went to Uni and loved it. Not looked back since.

    No I've never had www debates on the benifits system. I could just imagine it winding me up no end.

    Sticks and cans of larger are the way forward. I've seen people in blissful utopia with these two objects, Im sure it brings out the inner primate.

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