The fine line between needing to be social and needing solitude.

Does anyone else have problems with this balancing act? If not I'm just getting this off my chest.

I feel odd when I'm with people, without being insulting towards other humans I find they frustrate the life out of me. I find people just don't really have much valid to say. At the moment I'm sick of hearing people being demonised for claiming benifits, by people who claim working tax credits, child tax credits etc. I'm not in a position were I personally need to claim benifits, however I'm not into the demonisation of the ill and unemployed. It's not only this issue, people just being wide of the mark on lots of topics, science denialist's tend to be particulary frustrating.

I'd like to get on with people a lot more, I enjoy being social (within my small circle of friends). But I just find people stupid, ignorant and inhumane. I'm generally misanthropic and tend to upset people quite frequently by telling them that human life is cheap and explaining about a history of slave labour, concentration camps etc. Well I say upset, I think it just annoys people as It questions thier humanitarian ideals. I suppose thier lies my problem, hypocritical humanist whom don't see that they treat humans particulary badly. For instance they want to save the world and help African children, but have a poor attitude to work colleages.

I went to Auschwitz recently and people seem perplexed that I didn't get upset from the visit. I find it very odd: when I here people talking about how they think other people should be dealt with for not working (and not conforming to thier belief system), I can easily see how something as big as Nazi Germany could escalate. I find it so odd that people think that work is the only important thing in life. Surely there has to be more to life than self regulated slavery?

Today I cut my grass with mp3 player on and it was just bliss. Solitude and the world blanked out.

Wierdly, I still crave some social activities even tho people frustrate the life out of me. 

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  • I find the thing what really makes me start ranting is people's refusal to listen. I can take refusal to accept, I understand people have differing opinion. In my opinion I can balance quite well. My mum gets on my nerve's, I love her, but I find her very ignorant. I also hate people rudely interupting. This is what led my to post on here, It's also why I wouldn't let her anywhere near the diagnostic proceedure. I once tried to bring up autism, and within two hours it had went from complete denial to it must be a MMR, when I pointed out I didnt have MMR (my sister dehydrated when she had one, so my mum wouldnt let me) it was an injection my grandfather must have been given during WWII. She couldnt seem to contemplate genetic influence runs from male and female bloodlines. However I maybe shouldnt just highlight my mum. I find work collegues similar.

    When Im frustrated I find writing becomes harder, which makes me more frustrated. I sometimes get like that with reading too. Im sure thats a dyslexia thing. But when I argue, I tend to end up apologising even If I believe Im right as I find argueing very traumatic, I hate shouting. Im not sure if this is tied into autism or its just my personallity?

    Your writing comes accross as exceptional. I've also learned to hold back on email (&facebook), if I makes a point that isnt to everyone's taste I find the spelling gets ridiculed and people sidestep my point. For instance my sister is talking about her dreams on facebook and taking them literally, and I feel like pointing her in the direction of science. However I know for being rational it won't go down well. 

    I think I could with a new focus point. Something new to learn, or putting some use to my knowledge/expanding it. When I went to Uni, I was probably the happiest I've been in my life and I think thats down to having structure, being able to debate properly and it filled my need for information gathering. I think having goals is good thing. 

    Thanks for the responses. I know deep down, that i will care. I find it impossible not to care. Sometimes I do envy people that are content with a can of larger and a stick Cool

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  • I find the thing what really makes me start ranting is people's refusal to listen. I can take refusal to accept, I understand people have differing opinion. In my opinion I can balance quite well. My mum gets on my nerve's, I love her, but I find her very ignorant. I also hate people rudely interupting. This is what led my to post on here, It's also why I wouldn't let her anywhere near the diagnostic proceedure. I once tried to bring up autism, and within two hours it had went from complete denial to it must be a MMR, when I pointed out I didnt have MMR (my sister dehydrated when she had one, so my mum wouldnt let me) it was an injection my grandfather must have been given during WWII. She couldnt seem to contemplate genetic influence runs from male and female bloodlines. However I maybe shouldnt just highlight my mum. I find work collegues similar.

    When Im frustrated I find writing becomes harder, which makes me more frustrated. I sometimes get like that with reading too. Im sure thats a dyslexia thing. But when I argue, I tend to end up apologising even If I believe Im right as I find argueing very traumatic, I hate shouting. Im not sure if this is tied into autism or its just my personallity?

    Your writing comes accross as exceptional. I've also learned to hold back on email (&facebook), if I makes a point that isnt to everyone's taste I find the spelling gets ridiculed and people sidestep my point. For instance my sister is talking about her dreams on facebook and taking them literally, and I feel like pointing her in the direction of science. However I know for being rational it won't go down well. 

    I think I could with a new focus point. Something new to learn, or putting some use to my knowledge/expanding it. When I went to Uni, I was probably the happiest I've been in my life and I think thats down to having structure, being able to debate properly and it filled my need for information gathering. I think having goals is good thing. 

    Thanks for the responses. I know deep down, that i will care. I find it impossible not to care. Sometimes I do envy people that are content with a can of larger and a stick Cool

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