Today I got bullied, harassed, offended by a co-worker for simply existing in this body. I was totally confused and scared of the guy shouting on me for me not knowing exactly, what happened with one delivery. Normally I can track it in tge system, but I need some data. He refused to give me any information and pressured on me telling him immediately or maybe even better- making hocus pocus and bringing him the missing delivery. He seemed somehow angry or nervous I don't know. After asking him twice for more information I told him bluntly- I don't know anything. Then he said that he won't talk to me anymore, but to my manager instead (who is not there btw) but anyway. I said OK snd left. And then he followed me and kept harassing me. I was lucky, that one my ND colleague stood on my side. But I was highly stressed anyway. I was crying, shaking, wanted to become invisible to prevent people from talking to me or looking at me. It took me enormous amount of energy to try ti calm down and concentrate. Sometimes I wish those abusers come into my body for at least one day and feel the struggle that they make fun of.
I'm exhausted today because of one situation. The only thing I managed to tell him was that im not 24/7 at work to know everything about every single delivery. And that made him even more furious I don't know why. My other colleague said he behaved very bad and it was all happened because he had z bad mood. Well... highly unprofessional. And then he kept talking to others bad things about me. But I isolated myself from that, went to do my task.
