I'm undiagnosed and living with my disabled mother.
Unfortunately, she looks down on me. She always has. She sees me as an autistic failure. Funny as both of her grandchildren from her daughter are autistic.
Everytime I try to fix anything, she says no.
It's not fair on her if I stay any longer. The problem is, I can't talk to my sister as she is truely vile, so I had to disown her for my own mental heath. She thinks she has psychic powers and tries to hypnotise people into liking her. It's too much.
I have never responded to her random aggessive attacks and have been a gentleman. It's one of my weakness. I'm incapable of being aggessive. Always the gentleman. When I was fit to work, I was a barman and they called me the gentle giant. I think they knew I was on the specturm, but they were nice to me.
Disowning my sister has damaged my relationship with my mother.
She is ok with me, but stops me doing anything. I think it's her daughter talking to her. Poisioning her mind. She is toxic and manipulative. I told my mother I want to move to Cornwall, then she told her daughter and she moved to Cornwall...
I'm very sick and can't even take the bin out in the kitchen anymore, due to pain in my left quandrant from divertculosis.
She basically has disowned me because I have no children. The council have rejected my application for a council house as I have no children. If you have no children, you are an outcast that has no value. My mother suggested that I should have children to get a property. I would never do that. I'm ill and in no position to raise a child. If I found someone that I was in love with than yes. I can't have a relationshp due to my health. I have accepted that.
I sugggested that she needs a work shed so I can have a workbench and try to do work on her house and she said, "You don't know how to do anything. You don't have children. Just move out. Go away, you're bothering me".
It's a shame as she has lost a son. I'm never rude to her. I'm not in her will, so I have no inheritance anymore.
The only thing I would like is a garden. Maybe I should go to France and come to England on a dinghy (just kidding).
I have to reach out and get help.
I got an email reply from social perscibing and have an appointment at my local surgery regarding my living arrangement.
I'm very weak and can't think straight.
I love tropical plants and have ordered a Nikita's Gift persimmon tree and Avalon Peach from Frank Matthews nursery. I know I'm not in a postion to order plants, but the plants give me something to hold on to. They take my mind off my situation. I just want my plants. Maybe a landlord will allow plants? I wish I had a council property. I don't want to cheat the system like others.
My mind jumps around. It's werid to describe it. I think about what I need to do regarding housing, then my mind jumps and I forget. It keeps resetting. I think it's due to the servere head truama I had when I was young. I'm on meds for anxiety
I'm going around it circles. I think I have make this thread about 10 times and the mods gave me links for help, then I forget. I'm going around in circles. I will forget that I made this thread tomorrow. If I get a reply, I will get an email and remember.
I've always kept my condition to myself, but I need to talk next week. I hope I don't ruin her day. I'm not sure how much I should reveal.
It's getting worse as I age. I'm sorry for dumping this on you.
Have a nice weekend.
