At the end of May, tragically my mother in law passed away from suicide. It changed our world, espceillay my fiancee, and I feel it sometimes myself iin soft moments when I look out my window. She is reminded of the loss everyday and it breaks her all the time. She is devastated as you'd expect.
I have tried to help her during this awful time I really have, but I'm worried I keep slipping up. I've had my own struggles and tried to keep things going like cooking for her and cleaning the house after work, but she is angry at me constantly. Perhaps a lot of it is deserved it's hard to say: I was figuring out a work trip in July I was going to attend but I misjudged how me being away would affect her. Because of that I was called a selfish p**** and she said I've made this whole grieving process worse. And now doubt has been cast over us getting married.
I'm really really trying not to make this about me I don't want that, but I can't help but feel affected by this. I'm just looking for strength and wisdom on how to look out for her, and still try not to take to heart what is being said. But this is pretty seismic. We've been having relationship issues before her mom passed and she's always been angry at me calling me a c*** but all I've wanted to do was help her and love her. Like I said we've struggled before her moms passing so there's a lot of context I guess which is hard to write in one post.
Plus her family has really let her down. Her dad just cares about getting inheritance money, her aunt is just being a gossip and wicked. Her brother is equally struggling too, but I wish my fiancee would recognise that.
What do I do? I really feel like my relationship is doomed now, and I'm really really trying to help my fiancee. But I feel like I'm being selfish for posting this kind of thing. Am I?
