I think I'm starting to burn out again.
Yesterday was my birthday and I had a wonderful celebration with my partner. Work was fun as well, hung out with my work friends. Then my partner took me to a lovely dinner and gave me a present, we spent the rest of the evening just chatting and watching TV.
Around 11pm I went to take a shower which took all my remaining energy out of me. After I got out I needed my partner's help to dry off and put my pijamas on and get to bed. I was on the verge of a panic attack and my wonderful partner calmed me down and took care of me.
I didn't get very much sleep - I am working now, but only a half day. At noon, I need to go catch a coach with my friends to London to see a concert. I am so worried about how much energy this is going to take. I am anxious, it's too hot, I'm overstimulated, and I'm struggling to speak and to mask. I am worried the concert will be too loud, that it will be too crowded and too hot and too difficult to stand for so long. My mum is suggesting I not go, but I would feel so guilty, and I do WANT to go, it's just that I don't feel well.
I'm not sure what to do - if I do go, how will I cope? If I don't go, I will be angry with myself...
Any advice, help, or encouragement would be welcome