Lately, I am having such massive depressive episodes, mainly just with me feeling like a failure or that i keep screwing everything I do up. I've been like this for years, even before i was diagnosed with Asperger's. In school, the kids would always point out that i messed up or that i didn't do something the right way. Then i would see my parents, siblings or friends do things either the right way or perfectly and they would be praised.
It was like this for years, and it's gotten to a point to where I legit can't think of a nice thing to say about myself. Even when someone would try to say a nice to me, I'd just say something like "I did alright." or "It wasn't a big deal." My therapist even told me to write down one thing I like about myself everyday, but I cannot think of 1 thing to write. i can't even say "I love myself." and mean it. I recently accepted a lot of things about myself, like being gay, but I still can't find anything positive to say about myself.
I want to change this mindset, but it feels like it is set in stone. Am I a lost cause?
