Disabilities causing suicidal thoughts

I have several disabilities and don’t see the point in being here anymore. I always feel so useless and worthless because I can’t work and my impulse buying has got really bad to the point I can’t keep my own cards anymore, I am dependant on my family which makes me feel even more useless and guilty. I have no structure and purpose to my life and spend most of my time alone stuck indoors, but there’s nothing I want to do. I have tried to get so much help over the last 10 years and nothing has been helpful so I’ve given up hope. I’m always fatigued, have no energy, in pain and stressed out my mind 24/7, my head doesn’t shutup and is constantly racing, and I have panic attacks whenever I have to leave the house. I don’t see the point in suffering anymore and no one seems to be able to help me.

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  • Hey, sounds pretty tough for you right now. 

    First, I'll drop the link to the help page of you need it.

    https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help.

    It can be difficult if everything feels stacked against you, but that can also make it difficult to see the things worth hanging on for. Life changes a lot, and it won't always be the same. 

    It's tough of you feel dependant just now, but it's really great your family are there to help with things like money at the moment, they care about you enough to do that for you.

    And you can change small things about your situation, just maybe don't try to do it all at once. It sounds like you might have an idea of things you want to improve on your life, like being less dependant, and I know previous help hasn't worked, but doesn't mean something might not click for you in future. Maybe find a small thing you could do to get a an easy win, like reaching out here is great.

    Autism does have it's benefits, like not needing the same levels of human interactions, so some aspects of being stuck indoors might be made a little easier. If your mind is racing, maybe try journaling and writing it down. You tend to have to slow down a little to do the writing, and if you listen to peaceful music that would help too. 

    Have a read around the forum, people often talk about techniques to help their anxiety so they can control it long enough to do something, then retreat back to safety and rest having done the thing they needed to. 

    It is hard, but it's worth keeping going, and try your best (does require effort when your down), to see the joy on the small things, like enjoying looking a picture or watching out the window. See if you can get out in nature a bit, even if someone will take you for a quiet drive. And don't worry if you do need your families help at the moment, it's okay to get help when you need it.

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  • Hey, sounds pretty tough for you right now. 

    First, I'll drop the link to the help page of you need it.

    https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help.

    It can be difficult if everything feels stacked against you, but that can also make it difficult to see the things worth hanging on for. Life changes a lot, and it won't always be the same. 

    It's tough of you feel dependant just now, but it's really great your family are there to help with things like money at the moment, they care about you enough to do that for you.

    And you can change small things about your situation, just maybe don't try to do it all at once. It sounds like you might have an idea of things you want to improve on your life, like being less dependant, and I know previous help hasn't worked, but doesn't mean something might not click for you in future. Maybe find a small thing you could do to get a an easy win, like reaching out here is great.

    Autism does have it's benefits, like not needing the same levels of human interactions, so some aspects of being stuck indoors might be made a little easier. If your mind is racing, maybe try journaling and writing it down. You tend to have to slow down a little to do the writing, and if you listen to peaceful music that would help too. 

    Have a read around the forum, people often talk about techniques to help their anxiety so they can control it long enough to do something, then retreat back to safety and rest having done the thing they needed to. 

    It is hard, but it's worth keeping going, and try your best (does require effort when your down), to see the joy on the small things, like enjoying looking a picture or watching out the window. See if you can get out in nature a bit, even if someone will take you for a quiet drive. And don't worry if you do need your families help at the moment, it's okay to get help when you need it.

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