Hi,
This post is a more of a 'get it off your chest' type post. A little background about me is that I was diagnosed about a year ago. I think I took the diagnosis more for granted than I realised. It was more of a "oh, ok" and I continued my life as normal. I'm not sure, but I think my upbring and experiences have helped me into becoming a very resilient person who can adapt, though it costs my mental health to do so.
Today, I have realised that I have been experiencing autistic burnout for some time. Over the past few months I've experienced my mind being unable to say or do things it would have found trivial not long before. I feel less intelligent, less skillful. I feel like everyday is a battle.
I have began maladaptive daydreaming I assume to escape from my own overloaded brain, but in sequence continuing to overload my brain with the fantasy in my mind.
It's not really causing me any issues yet, but I know that I could become addicted to it for the chemical stimuli it can become. It gives me a perfect private world where I can be myself & always get the assurance I need, even if it comes from myself.
So that is why I am writing this post, so I can realise what I am saying, hope to see others who may feel the same.