Pattern finding

I get subconsciously attracted by patterns, so I stare at some pattern in the town, for example a building with balconies and I stare and stare and notice instantly that some of the balconies break the pattern,  because of the different color or design that someone has customised and it annoys me and I ask a question in my head, why is this second balcony from the right blue instead if yellow, like all others. And I forget the whole world while staring and analysing the broken pattern on the balconies.

Pattern recognition is an acquired skill, which Government Schools don't want to teach. And, because the state shuns it, they want to drive those who do recognise patterns insane.

It's a neverending game of cat-and-mouse. Start becoming the cat.

Oh and misunderstanding l, invalidation from the physical world and probably many more patterns I need to seek

Missing pattern I think was anxiety of feeling safe I didn’t know I was scared to feel safe with myself or others but I can feel safe myself i just don’t know whats going on

Yeah, back and forwards, think I’m getting use to new me, I learnt the wrong languages and copied behaviours, now I understand how much I really did try to fit in, felt like I nearly got stuck

Too much code breaking? I  think it was you that was doing the challenge.