This is a difficult one to explain. Since I discovered my terrible PDA (pathological demand avoidance), I noticed that there are certain words I can't say I'm doing since it makes me feel like I'm following a demand and I feel humiliated/embarrassed by it. I finished my A levels and now I'm at university, but I cannot say things like "I'm studying" or when I was in school, I could never say "I have homework". I guess because it's a demand where I have no other options, and saying it out loud somehow makes me feel inferior? Anyway that's it. I've never heard this spoken about (because it's so specific) but it would be wonderful to hear from anyone who gets me :)
