Dear all,
I am very sorry if this has been covered in other conversations, please accept my apologies in advance. I normally have a well regulated life when everything has a routine, work, nursery, house life, good plans for weekends, well managed breaks to recharge, I live in a nice natural spot with green, seaside which allows me to go for walks (very helpful for me) etc. I love going on holidays too as I love travelling, but recently whenever holidays are in the horizon I start getting panic attacks, before and on holidays too. Specifically when holidays involve going to my home town and stay with or close by to my parents things are worse. This Christmas things really went out of control. I have seen and see currently therapists, counsellors, psychiatrists, GPs etc... everyone super supportive, with plenty of sources of help. I have been prescribed antidepressants of various types but all ended up with unbearable side effects which disabled all other aspects of my life given that this really is only confined to holidays....so everyone seems a bit puzzled on what to do with me. The reason I write here is that I feel very alone and I am terrible at expressing this feeling, I wonder whether anyone has experienced something similar. I am not asking for a solution of course and I understand that everyone is different, just wanted to know if anyone has experienced anything similar.
Thanks a lot!