the most context i can give is that i’m 20, i’ve had diagnosed depression since 16, more or less (suspected before by doctors, but never officially diagnosed or medicated, only medicated for anxiety with propranolol at 15 because i refused to leave my house).
im really struggling at the moment, horrendously, but my doctor seems to never listen to what i say, and only say what they seem to think i either way to hear — or whatever is just the easiest option for them.
i’ve been told, previously, in therapy that i might have a personality disorder (i do not want to specify), obviously as well as my autism (late diagnosis, around 15). i’ve mentioned this to my doctor, but they’ve never seemed to really listen. i’ve been through several medications between 16-20 (4 i think now? possibly 5???) and none have worked, none have even made a dent.
i think i need advice on to how to try convince my doctor to listen to me. im really struggling, i am not doing well at all, but i can’t go to her if i don’t know what to say, maybe there’s some answers here????
i don’t know if it’s the autism that makes her treat me like a child, but i need to be spoken to like im an adult - i am an adult, i really don’t know how to go about this and i am really unwell. please help. if anyone can.
another topic, technically in the same post, but i don’t know if this is autism or just me being anxious — does anyone else struggle with horrendous low periods when their friends seem less interested in them? not maliciously, but just hanging out less while still speaking to each other? am i paranoid or is it something i should mention? i really don’t know.
sorry for such a long post, it’s early in the morning, i haven’t slept properly in days, i think i just really need advice with all of this, if anyone is willing. thank you for reading.