Hello everyone, I'm fairly new here & not great at communicating so here goes.. I'm 60yrs old, livimg in Scotland, diagnosed autistic 8yrs ago and also diagnosed with Complex PTSD which is accumulated since childhood. I care for my two autistic adult children at home. I dream every time I sleep, even if I dose off for a moment I dream- it sounds impossible but it's a fact. At night when I sleep I have huge epic dreams which are complicated, emotional, distressing and when I wake up every morning I am distressed, shocked, frightened. It takes until mid afternoon or evening for these feelings to ease and then when I sleep again the dreams happen and it's like a reset' in my mind & on waking I'm back to being very distressed etc. This has been happening daily/nightly for as long as I can remember, decades. I've been seen by 2 psychiatrists and a psychologist, have tried different therapy methods to try and control my sleep and 'influence' my dreaming, and have even tried prescribed Prazosin at various strenths to try and ease the dreams but nothing has had any effect. As you can imagine I'm beyond exhausted every day. I also suffer with regular emotional flashbacks which can last for days at a time. I've had limited counselling via the NHS none of which was autism informed or trauma informed. Private counselling has not been an option for me as I have no income due to being my son's unpaid fulltime carer. Please can amyone help with my search for some appropriate affordable counselling. I honestly feel completely unsupported and desperate. Thank you for reading this.
