I can’t cope anymore. Everything is crashing down and i just dont want to be here anymore. I’m just a waste of space and cause so much pain for my partner and kids. I feel so ashamed and can’t reconnect after recent overwhelm. So many things happened in space of hr last Friday and I’ve lost it. Shut down and struggling to get through this one. I feel so ashamed. I’m supposed to be a partner and parent but I’m just hurting them. Being the weekend is the worse time too as I’m usually just a rollercoaster bouncing around and then give up. I can’t seem to bare being around anyone or anything as it just feels like someone has their finger on an electric buzzer and constantly being triggered everywhere I go. Staying in bed with music looping is only place I can be right now. I don’t know how to get through this.