In a deep place

I can’t cope anymore. Everything is crashing down and i just dont want to be here anymore. I’m just a waste of space and cause so much pain for my partner and kids. I feel so ashamed and can’t reconnect after recent overwhelm. So many things happened in space of hr last Friday and I’ve lost it. Shut down and struggling to get through this one. I feel so ashamed. I’m supposed to be a partner and parent but I’m just hurting them. Being the weekend is the worse time too as I’m usually just a rollercoaster bouncing around and then give up. I can’t seem to bare being around anyone or anything as it just feels like someone has their finger on an electric buzzer and constantly being triggered everywhere I go. Staying in bed with music looping is only place I can be right now. I don’t know how to get through this. 

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  • I'm sorry to hear how you are feeling. There is nothing to be ashamed about, you can't help how you feel. What you can do is plan how to manage those feelings and how to make inroads to communicate with your partner. Try to focus on yourself and what you need for a while, then when you feel ready try to talk to your partner and ask for their support - being in a relationship is about supporting each other and compromise. If you don't feel ready to talk maybe use text messaging.

    I would also suggest you call your GP surgery first thing tomorrow and ask for an urgent appointment, but if things get worse today and you need help more urgently call.111.

    Remember that there are a lot of us on this forum who have been in the same or similar situation and we understand and won't judge you - you're not alone. I hope things improve very soon.

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  • I'm sorry to hear how you are feeling. There is nothing to be ashamed about, you can't help how you feel. What you can do is plan how to manage those feelings and how to make inroads to communicate with your partner. Try to focus on yourself and what you need for a while, then when you feel ready try to talk to your partner and ask for their support - being in a relationship is about supporting each other and compromise. If you don't feel ready to talk maybe use text messaging.

    I would also suggest you call your GP surgery first thing tomorrow and ask for an urgent appointment, but if things get worse today and you need help more urgently call.111.

    Remember that there are a lot of us on this forum who have been in the same or similar situation and we understand and won't judge you - you're not alone. I hope things improve very soon.

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