Hi everyone, I am reaching out as a person who has suffered with mental health issues since about age 11 and recently diagnosed with autism a few years ago. I have never been able to work but for about 7 years I managed to attend college until I had a six month stint in hospital due to mental health issues and suspected encephalitis. Right now I own a home with my fiancé (we've been together 5 years). He works from home full time in his office and this helps that he's there if I need him, but at times I still get insecure, upset, down and even on very bad days suicidal. I do suffer with my mobility as well. My doctors know about all this and I am on medication for my mental health. It just doesn't stop life from feeling very hard and frustrating at times and even a bit lonely. I try to keep myself busy, I like crafts and music but I don't really have many friends to talk to and I always feel like I'm always the one reaching out. I do have mine and my partners family and of course my fiancé but they can't always be there due to life commitments. I just thought it would be good to write everything down and put it out there to see if anyone has similar experiences or any advice.