The AuDHD Balancing Act

For those of you with Autism + ADHD, do you find there is a balance between the two conditions? Does one interact with, or counteract, the other to some degree?

My ADHD kept me jumping up out of my chair so often that I made easy connections with people at work. When I went on stimulant medication, I was much more able to sit still, but found that over the years, those connections were largely lost and I ended up on the outside looking in. There was probably a balance between my ADHD and my Autism that had been lost. OTOH, I got a lot more work done. In my home life, I became more taciturn and less spontaneous. I got more DIY done, but I found it difficult to maintain much connection with my kids when they hit the teenage wasteland.

Off the meds (for two years), I feel I have my "spark" back to some degree, but my ability to get anything done has largely disappeared. There is no "happy medium" here, though. I'm either too unable to work, or I'm too likely to become a hermit. I'm finding it hard to figure out which option I would prefer to live with.

Parents
  • I have tension between many things which I am attributing to AuDHD, although I haven’t yet been formally diagnosed with ADHD. 

    The most difficult thing is my desire for perfection in some aspects of my life, mostly related to my living space and some items that I own. Chaos is tugging at perfection (if this was Ancient Greece I would be blaming the gods) which causes distress. If anybody messes or breaks the perfect things it upsets me yet it is usually my chaotic behaviour that causes disruption.

    I can focus intensely and for long periods on my interests. I can’t focus on some other things of interest because I can’t maintain concentration. 

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  • I have tension between many things which I am attributing to AuDHD, although I haven’t yet been formally diagnosed with ADHD. 

    The most difficult thing is my desire for perfection in some aspects of my life, mostly related to my living space and some items that I own. Chaos is tugging at perfection (if this was Ancient Greece I would be blaming the gods) which causes distress. If anybody messes or breaks the perfect things it upsets me yet it is usually my chaotic behaviour that causes disruption.

    I can focus intensely and for long periods on my interests. I can’t focus on some other things of interest because I can’t maintain concentration. 

Children
  • The old monotropic "interest-based nervous system", as I've seen it called. If I'm interested, I lose myself in it; if not, wild horses couldn't drag me to it.

    I can get lost in one of these attention tunnels really quickly. My wife can say something and my brain goes, "Hmm. That's interesting," and the next thing I know I've missed 20 seconds of the conversation. I explain what happened and ask her to repeat the last bit. She's used to it.