I've never really felt comfortable discussing my thoughts and feelings with my family as a private one to one discussion soon became "common knowledge".
So as a result my family are generally unaware of my health situation. I was diagnosed with severe depression at 18 and somewhere over the next 30+ years it was deemed to be treatment resistant. And then at the age of 53 I was diagnosed with ASD with the recommendation that I should also be assessed for ADHD (which is happening in a couple of weeks)
I've been having a really tough time over the last couple of weeks and I finally plucked up the courage to tell my older sister what's been going on, she's less likely to panic!
I planned to do it yesterday but life got in the way and to top it off I tested positive for COVID.
So it hasn't happened yet and I'm starting to question my decision, I'm a really private person who dislikes and attention being brought to bare.The last time my younger sister caught whiff that I was feeling a little down she almost called a full intervention. I'd commented on someone's Facebook post about a struggle they were having and she actually turned up on my doorstep, she meant well and it shows she cares but it was a little unnecessary and uncomfortable.
I think it's also about the disconnection I feel from the people around me and my feelings of general isolation.
Sorry this isn't really a question or a rant, it's just something that's on my mind.
