UK what a messed up system!

gone 3 months ago

Hi all

Sorry for another moan, but my support worker is away, 'again. I have contacted the Drs, CMHT, Friends, even the Police.

Last week I was victim of a hate crime, basically accused of being gay all because i am 40 and choose to be single, this was in a cafe locally. It wasnt a one off joke nope 45 mins. Ive not returned, I have reported to the local Police.

I had a mental health meeting last night and I told them, they encouraged me to report it. I have. I also disclosed other stuff too.. (more on that another time)

I got home and wasnt with it, hearing loud voices and commands, its never been this bad, anyway i looked down and I had self harmed big time (both feet). I wasnt aware I was doing it.

I spoke to GP, CMHT and even Shout and what a messed up system we have, when a neurodiverse man with severe mental health is asking for help, there is none, so as i write this I am scared, frightened and i dont feel safe with myself or anyone else at the moment yet the stupid system would prefer i went out and hurt myself or someone before, thats before getting any support.

Theres not much hope.

So what now ??

gone 3 months ago in reply to Crystal

They used to be whispers, now full on voices, am worried as i wasnt even aware i had hurt myself, am worried if ive ever hurt anyone else. this isnt right.
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Crystal 3 months ago in reply to gone

I'm glad you're getting some cream. I'm presuming it's a type of antiseptic.

I hope your voices aren't troubling still? I know someone who had that sometimes, and aside from sleeping and anxiety medication, they found grounding exercises helpful sometimes. I don't know if you know any?
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Expecto_Patronum 3 months ago

I'm sorry that you are experiencing a difficulty with the system. I understand what you mean about them waiting for worst case scenario before you get the proper support.

I have seen by a previous post of yours that this comes and goes for you and that you have before been in a better place. I know it's really hard at the moment but try to remember that this too will pass. This is the thought that I hold on to when things feel really bad.

I understand the system hasn't helped you but have you tried ringing mental health helplines? They are there to listen to you. You can get your feelings and worries off your chest. They won't judge. You can explain your difficulties with accessing help and they may have advice as they deal with this kind of thing all the time. There are a lot of different helplines and some allow text services if you don't feel like talking.
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gone 3 months ago in reply to Crystal

111 will pass onto ambulance, not hat bad. GP has prescribed me some cream, will collect tomorrow. Mental health helpline useless. Thanks tho
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Crystal 3 months ago in reply to gone

I'm sorry to hear that. Do you think it might be best to call someone, perhaps 111 initially, or a mental health helpline?

Then you could get your feet checked out.
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gone 3 months ago in reply to Crystal

Don't feel safe. Its a horrid feeling.
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gone 3 months ago in reply to Crystal

Hey. Have never felt this bad. Am spacing out and keep thinking about death. Support worker will be another week. Wish the voices would stop
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Crystal 3 months ago

Hello gone , how are you feeling right now? Are you able to give your feet some attention, or get in contact with someone who can take you to an urgent treatment centre? It sounds like you may need a doctor or nurse to look at them.

I'm very sorry to hear of what happened. Do you know when your support worker is due back?
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