Hi all
Sorry for another moan, but my support worker is away, 'again. I have contacted the Drs, CMHT, Friends, even the Police.
Last week I was victim of a hate crime, basically accused of being gay all because i am 40 and choose to be single, this was in a cafe locally. It wasnt a one off joke nope 45 mins. Ive not returned, I have reported to the local Police.
I had a mental health meeting last night and I told them, they encouraged me to report it. I have. I also disclosed other stuff too.. (more on that another time)
I got home and wasnt with it, hearing loud voices and commands, its never been this bad, anyway i looked down and I had self harmed big time (both feet). I wasnt aware I was doing it.
I spoke to GP, CMHT and even Shout and what a messed up system we have, when a neurodiverse man with severe mental health is asking for help, there is none, so as i write this I am scared, frightened and i dont feel safe with myself or anyone else at the moment yet the stupid system would prefer i went out and hurt myself or someone before, thats before getting any support.
Theres not much hope.
So what now ??
