Given up

You pause, you take a long breath, you look outside the window and try and notice the natural world going about its business, you continue to reach out for help via different routes, you try to judge yourself less harshly (talk to yourself as you would to a friend), you eat a snack, you drink some water.

If you are getting worried about needing more help - you read through and bookmark the NAS urgent help page (and have a think whether one of those organisations might be a good place to contact too):

https://www.autism.org.uk/contact-us/urgent-help

Our support community is still here - but sometimes reaching out to 111 or your GP is a sensible next step.  Keep communication open with people in the real world too.

My GP an 111 dont listen ive tried to much an think ive overstepped alot.. but thanks for ur reply an I am truly sorry if I get to much on here its just I dont have anyone else really an when u feel so low um just scared.

My GP an 111 dont listen ive tried to much an think ive overstepped alot.. but thanks for ur reply an I am truly sorry if I get to much on here its just I dont have anyone else really an when u feel so low um just scared.

That made me chuckle thanks  

Welshgirl87 said:

I make my own I can't eat the ones from a store even tho I woke in one who sells them

Yeah, I know a guy who wouldn't eat sausages after he worked in a sausage factory.

I hope your chicken sandwich went down well. Just focus on those little things for now. The rest will swing back around in time. When you hit rock bottom, the only way is up. (Aw, fudge! I hated that song and now I got it stuck in my head!)

Go easy on yourself.

You know what you like to eat - that is important.

It is also both good food hygiene and good for the budget too - to make your own pack lunch and take it to work.

Welshgirl87 said:

no idea what I'll have later when im home tho

Meant to say, thinking of what to have later:

your "..

I can't face the supermarket" friend

...is the website below.

First, you rattle through the kitchen cupboard doors and the fridge / freezer compartments.

Then you type into the recipe search bar a couple of food items you noticed during your kitchen rattling. 

You can filter the list to healthy / vegetarian and so forth.

You can download the recipe idea as a pdf as well in case your wifi etc signal isn't great in the kitchen.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/food

I make my own I can't eat the ones from a store even tho I woke in one who sells them, plus um such a fussy eater 

If I am in a city centre I will often buy myself a chicken salad sandwich from Sainsbury's (because they are near my bus stop and I like their sandwich).

Did you make yours or buy it?

Always think i am thats why I tend to apologise alot, an think when I talk its nonsense.

Well I have the best lunch a chicken sandwich cause im in work.. no idea what I'll have later when im home tho

Not a problem - because you are not being a problem - so no need to be sorry.

Start small.

What are you going to have for lunch today? 

(It takes me a while to get organised for lunch ...I can't be the only one who finds that!).